2008 sucked

yea -
I"m glad for this year to be over.
guess what I jut saw on the scale?
242.
yep.
remember the shock at 230?
ha!
242.

I'm a fucking huge fucking cow.

update

Well, I was pregnant for 9 weeks. Then it was over. I had a d&c to finish it off. I'm 225lbs.
How's that for an update.
I've had an awakening though.
I must reclaim my body and my health.
I'm formulating a plan right now... but it must must be done.
I'm going to start by food journaling.

well, huh.

So my rough start to the year got rougher.
I got pregnant.
And at the doctor today it was confirmed there is no baby... just an empty baby sack.
So now I need a d&c.
Shit.
But the good news is, hopefully I'll be able to lose weight before getting pregnant again.

It's been a rough start

A rough start to 2008 diet wise. I'm sad to report that I did actually see 230 on the scale.
I spent 2 hours last night with my food mover mapping out a week's worth of meals. I've done excellent today.
I'm happy... I reached my "high" weight... I freaked and cried... now I can just lose the weight. I've set myself up for success... I'm highly motivated and I've got excellent support from my husband.

Right now I've got the headache I always get when I start a new way of eating. It's the same headache every time. It tells me that I haven't eaten what I usually do today.
Here's what I had:

B: cereal w/ milk
L: Subway sandwich loaded with veggies and 1 tsp of Mayo
S: Veggies and dip
D: roasted chicken, rice, green beans and roasted peppers.
S: fruit

Tomorrow's food will be tastier as I'm going to the grocery store in the morning.
Monday my gym routine starts. My goal is to exercise 4-5x per week.

Resolved: 2007 was wonderful. 2008 will be too.

It's with a bit of sadness that I say goodbye to 2007. This was the year that my life-long dream of becoming a mother came true. After battling infertility for more than a year, I'd all but given up. Yet, here we are.
I have a beautiful son and a wonderful supportive husband.
Fat or not, life doesn't get much better than that.

Still though, I do want to improve somethings about myself. Life is all about becoming better, right?

So here they are. My New Year's Resolutions.

1) Lose 40lbs by Dec 31st 2008.
2) Have scar-free arms
3) Worry less
4) Find a church and attend regularly
5) restart my book club


They ambitious, but do-able.
Here's to another wonderful year!!

A very healthy dinner

Tonight for dinner we had roasted butternut squash, shrimp, tomatoes, mushrooms and onions over rice.
We snacked on pretzels, nuts and chocolate chips.
I really feel like the chromium is helping with sugar cravings. I still have them, but they're manageable.
I'm thinking I'll just skip "blast off" week and go right to the 1600 calorie card on my Food Mover. I never make it through blast off and I feel so defeated.
Hopefully my son will get over his cold so I can exercise. He can't go to the Y when he's sick.

Back from the Beach

I'm back from the beach.
It was a quick trip.
I've decided to really stick with the food mover... it's balanced and it works for me.
I'm going to keep on my vitamins as well as watch what I eat until after Christmas.
Then I'll get in full swing.
I feel excited and defeated all at once.